I'm in trance

two is better than one

2010-02-21T19:10:00.003+08:00

I remember what you wore on the first day
You came into my life and I thought
"Hey, you know, this could be something"
'Cause everything you do and words you say
You know that it all takes my breath away
And now I'm left with nothing

So maybe it's true
That I can't live without you
And maybe two is better than one
But there's so much time
To figure out the rest of my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And I'm thinking two is better than one

I remember every look upon your face
The way you roll your eyes
The way you taste
You make it hard for breathing
'Cause when I close my eyes and drift away
I think of you and everything's okay
I'm finally now believing..

Ever since the day i got pretty much jaded in love, i've decided not to hope and expect and i wanna thank you for making me realise that i shouldnt fall so deeply in love.

I guess i should have slapped myself out of my dreamland..that there isn't such thing as fairytales. Reality is harsh. Nothing is perfect in life.

And People that are useless and selfish can go get a life. For me, i dislike desperates. Be it girls or guys. Stop trying so hard. heh.

Old changi hospital

2010-02-20T21:40:00.002+08:00

Hey guys..!!

I've just chanced by this blog ,it's damn cool and interesting! some film crew descided to Do a documentary about Old Changi hopsital! So creepy..!

Do visit it at www.hauntedchangi.blogspot.com

Hmm. Feeling very tired recently. Running here and there. Sigh~

Also feeling very troubled. :/

In any way, i hope this will be a beginning..! :D

Till then!

xoxo

Calender

2010-02-12T00:12:00.001+08:00

Make a Smilebox calendar

one step at a time

2010-02-11T21:47:00.003+08:00

haha

havent been bloggin alot. i know!!! sorry peeps.

Met alot of cool people and so far things have been going great for me.. i am so glad to have genuine people around me. those that cares for me, and not fakers or some one that just wants something in return.

You horny fucks just fuck off man. I aint as cheap as you think. I don't need to fuck you to get a fuckin JOB!!

Yup. :)

Went for Phantom management interview and i got in! :D *jumps in the air*

I wanna thank too many people in this journey.. I wanna start to open my eyes and cherish the little things and not take any of them for granted.

Hmmmmmmm yesterday was crazy partying!! Met many of my friends and saw my cousin! haha, its been a long time since i last talked to her.. Butterfactory is like the only club i party at now! :/ FUN! :D

Anyway, lets talk about today. Met up with Fel & Went for a dental appt (F.O.C) hahahaah!! thanks Mr G.tan. I can't stop smiling. heeeheeee. to go for a casting but we were too late to make it so will be going tomorrow instead!

tomorrow is gonna be a hell of a day for me! Ive gotta go for skit rehersal @ redhill and then casting @ bishan and then another casting @ Boon lay.

Faints. Running here and there to different places. After castings might be heading down to butter/supperclub. :)

Thanks Syl for supporting me , guiding me and most of all, believing in me! :) i appreciate loads.

PLUS i totally can't wait for the shoot this coming saturday! it's gonna be awesome !!

whee..

hope your having fun there baby.missing you.. :( come back soon !

:(

2010-01-24T23:46:00.007+08:00

Guess its just a dream.

Why do i always get myself so in love with a guy that i lose myself .. ?I hate myself for loving him so much. Why am i feeling the same heartbreak i had 4 years ago when my first ex hurt me like fuck?Why history just have to repeat itself? I love him so generously and all i get from him is nothing but hurtful words or actions.

Yes, i don't deny that he has his good points too. But apparently.. in this case as from now..It seems like that person doesn't exist anymore, that guy that loved me almost unconditionally. Well, perhaps its true when people say Love is always passionate but the strong passion won't last for long and sooner or later, it will fade away.. I guess its like the fire burning.

The only thing he does best is make me cry. Cry and cry. Crying is my forte now.

I am not needy, i'm just another average girl that wants the basic needs from a Boyfriend.
Its not that i am demanding you to buy branded things, sending me home everyday,talking on the phone everyday,going out everyday etc.

What did i do wrong? Maybe the only mistake i did is that i fell too much in love with you.

i'm trying my best to be a good girlfriend..

do i fail badly as one..? :'(

I really dread this. i want a happy carefree love life.

I've always have faith in Love..

I don't wish to believe in Love or rather, True love anymore.

Nothing seemed to go smoothly for me this month. Nothing.

Cebuuuuu

2009-11-20T13:55:00.002+08:00

In Cebu now! hahaha.. bueno-ing now!AHAH .with Gina,the pretttty babe.. :D

hehe. so far it has been just shopping eating and slacking! cuz filming starts on monday. 0.0

LOL. we came so early is because we had to do measurements for costume fiitting. yuppp.

too lazy to upload pics here, for those that wanna see more can view them on my facebook ya? hehe, cebu really rocks becuz the things and food here are so cheap! :) Grinnnnns..

But on second thoughts,i think the security is kinda dangerous here.

heading out for lunch soon!! Heheheee.. Thai food !Lalalaa..

To phoenix - Thank you babe, for all your kind sweet words.. :D:D i just wanna let you know that you are a very strong girl. its good you don't give a fuck to those low-life fuckers out there that are just jealous of you. :) just keep smiling like you are always doing, cuz it certainly is working . heheeeee. You are amazing my magician babe. haha, have never get to watch your performance before though! :D Hope you do well and rock that freaking performance at the shopping mall .

ps you can always confide with me ..

You know you want it

2009-11-15T13:58:00.002+08:00

Just to share some pictures!

Will put up more next time!:)

Alrighteys, tata!

running off for a shoot now.

i miss you dearly

2009-11-15T01:54:00.004+08:00

Had an extremely early shoot with Patrick . at 12am. Ended at 3.30am :)

Thank you Patrick,for those awesome shots, you are one of the few photographers that can make me look prettier than normal in pictures..! :D LOVE THEM.haha

HA.. kinda crazy eh..

After shoot,went for supper, got home around 4.30am.

Slept at 6am, woke up at 9.30am ,left home at 10am plus to meet Ronny to get clothes for shoot at Berjaya hotel..:D

Anyways..been having alot of thoughts about my future..Ugh.. :(

Should i request to go over to cebu for internship in July instead....?

Should i go over for internship or stay here and sign up for MDIS mass comm course..?

Should i work at Status production,and not go for internship and not study as well?

Should i go back to my family in January or after Cebu .. ?

Should i work at prudential again if i go cebu in July?

And what's gonna happen to "that's a star" if i go over to cebu for 4 months?

I just started dance rehearsals!! AHH...

All the freaking question marks.. Seriously sucks..!:((

Sigh.. it has only been 4 days without baby.And i miss him so dearly already.. :(

Worst of all,After he comes back on tues, i will only get to spend just one day with him on wed,and then thursday i will be off to cebu for 10 days..

I know i shouldnt complain cuz there are many couples out there that are surviving through long distance relationships.. and 4 months is seriously shicken feet to them.

But STILL!! argh!

Hope he is having fun at Goldcoast now..Love ya baby.

Muacks..!

Through the rain

2009-11-13T02:14:00.004+08:00

Today was Crazy. I am extremely tired. After all the dance training,shopping.. and then salsa at Amara hotel..Not to forget the morning shoot with Bryan,Mervin and David. Whooo...just SHAGGED. -.-

Anyways.. Here are just some of the Pictures David Kow(Efficient right!) took during the shoot earlier in the day at emerald hill.Which technically,is my first time there.HA,Oh oh and did my First ever shoot in the rain!!Cool right?! hehehe, it was FUN!:D:D

More pictures @ www.beckiish21.multiply.com

光影

I miss you..

Through the rain..

AND this was taken after the dance Prac. HA.i didnt know Cloudie has a fetish for my foot. :S HA! Dance prac was funfun!Cola was such a hoottieee.

So, after the practice, Went shopping with Cloudie and i spent more than i thought i would!Shit!!Zzzzzzzz. But nevermind, there are really gorgeous and i MUST be their owner.

I bought 3 pair of heels and a sandal. Plus, 2 pair of hot pants. Just likethat! So quickly..!!

The shopaholic in me just CAN'T step into BUGIS. it's just dooms day. seriously.

:S Too many things, too little time. AND MONEY! hahaha!!

I have already bought 4 pairs of footwear and i totally still wanted to buy MORE! lucky Cloudie dear was there to CONTROL me.HAHAH!

and omg,i found the shop where they sell ALLLLLLL corsets.Freaking hot. damn...

:D:D

yeah... today at Union square was pretty happening towards the end.

Most of the overseas instructors that are performing and teaching tomorrow at Downtown east (SISF) were there..Pretty awesome.But didn't dance with them though, I WAS JUST TOO TIRED! and i was wearing my sandals. :( andand my back started to feel pain again, gotta take care of it,i don't want to go through another MRI shit and take like hundreds of pills. ugh. :X

ANyways.. if any of you guys want to buy nice EXOTIC lingeries orrr costumes, you can shop here!!

http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=342995&id=529570547

Go take a look, there's some hot shit there!

Just mention Rebecca and you get a 10% discount !:D

Alrighteys, i gotta head to sleep now, it is freak-ing 2.30AM and i NEED to wake up tomorrow for yet another shoot.

Nighteys lovelies!

xoxo

Choices

2009-11-10T13:29:00.006+08:00

Hey dears!!

Vote for me!!

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Thank you ! xoxo

Anyways, have been in a terrible dilemma these days..

On a brighter note, i will be travelling to Cebu on 19th nov for a movie scene..!

:D I AM SO EXCITED!!BUT.. i won't be able to be involve in the toni and guy hair show..

and won't be able to do the other events that am already booked..

i feel so bad.. sigh.

So..

They offered me a 4 months internship in Cebu to do modeling, which is a fantastic opportunity..!

hows that? hehe, i am sure 4 months is gonna pass very quickly. Though i will miss my boyfriend loads. :(

AH WELL. Guess this is what we have to go through in life, our career.

Kinda cool, feels like "one tree hill" in a moment. LOL.

Feeling sleepy, nap time!

Loser = me

2009-11-09T01:43:00.003+08:00

I am thoroughly disappointed.

What's dignity..?

Poise and self-respect.

i am.& I am proud of it.

I will not do anything fucked up for monetary gains.

If i can't be popular or famous or be a fucking star,so be it.

HA.i Just threw my opportunity away.

And i don't think it is a mistake.

I shall just be a loser.:)

Yes, maybe if anyone is willing to do anything to get what they want, they are smart in a way,but will their conscience prick them?In ANY way at all?

I cannot afford to lose someone i love so deeply.

I just want things to go the right and professional way but apparently it doesn't.

Thats the reason why i am upset.

I really love what i do. And i really hope someone that has faith in me wouldn't want something in return to groom me or whatsoever.

Sigh..

Ah,fuck it. This whole shit is insane.

This world is crazy.

This world is FUCKING selfish.

Tonight's gonna be a good night

2009-11-06T01:28:00.004+08:00

HA! this is what i do when i'm bored. well, don't shoot me just yet, i have not been cam whoring for AGES. so yep XDyippiee.Pictures from Appec event party at swisshotel. Of cuz, will upload more as soon as i get the rest of the pics! :D

Butterfac yesterday. And it was pretty insane.. HAHA. went literally crazy with two random girls. :X i felt like a lesbian. I swear.. Oh, i forgot.. i think i am BI-sexual. HAHAHAhahhaha!!!Whatever.

Anyways.. today helped my baby boy to call.. and out of 15 calls, i made him 2 appointments! Ain't i great. He simply adores me. tee heeeee.

Going for casting tomorrow.yet again.Will be meeting Cola.

hmmmmm..

Just found a great job.

Well, definitely something better than CALLING and calling. hah.

I will be a production assistant. OOOhhhh wow, sounds kinda cool right! HAHAA!

yeah. Im veryvery sure that it is going to be fun and something new for me to explore,but its game on for me. Okay,i don't mean i take it as a game but you know what i mean ya?!

Kinda funny right? Im always in the entertainment side like being a model or a dancer.

And now it will be the opposite. I will be the backstage. Sorta behind the scene kinda thing.Which is cool as well. Of cuz my boss, ok not my boss officially YET, but he is understanding enough to let me do my modeling assignments concurrently.

i will put in the best and i just hope i won't screw anything up :S

May God bless me.

I got a feeling - Black eyed peas IS JUST GOOD SHIT!!!!! WHeeee

Feel this

2009-11-03T23:42:00.008+08:00

HA! Pictures taken on Halloween. Sat! :D was on the way to Plaza sing to watch "This is IT" .. It was pretty good. :) MJ is truly a legend.. And he will never be forgotten..

Anyways, after movie, baby and i went to clarke quay.. met up with friends..then to Rebel! I TOTALLY HATED THE CROWD THERE. It was crazily insane. Even outside the club, it was so freaking packed,i could hardly walk through and almost had an asthma attack. Goodness, and yes, let's not talk about INSIDE the club. Zzz.

Heh,but yeahhh there were people in costumes, fun watching them. :)

Went home at about 4am? Took a night Rider home with baby.

SUN!

Went for my first ever event job that is not dance-related.

It was a product launch .Think it was some fuel or engine kinda product launch.

The company name is Speed master.

Worked with Michiee , this month's hotstuff issue you can see her featured there! :D

Event ended at around 3pm.

Headed off to meet baby at Suntec ..and then to attend briefing for the Apec event party at swisshotel.

handsome right? XD

Sorry baby.. for making you wait for so LONG!didn't know the briefing was so long and you had to babysit pearline's dog.. BUT baby told me that dog is adorable..awwww. Sweet. hahaa!

Cute right!?!!?!?! hehe

Yup.. thats Sunday.

Monday was a blast. Apec event was fun.. :)

Worked with the other gorgeous models.

and met many people there at the event.Pictures are not sent to me yet,but i will upload as soon as i have it!! :D

Gosh.. this month i'm so freaking busy with castings castings and castings.

Shooooooooots and shoooots and events.

I have not time for work at all and i think my colleagues miss me:(

Am going to The screening room for a casting tomorrow. YAWNs.

Hope i do well.

and i can't wait to watch One tree hill season 6.Fucking awesome..

Alrighteys.i'm signing off. Hugs!xoxo

Feel this - Bethany Joy Lenz

Ah-ah-ah-ah, ah-ah-ah-ah-ah, ah-ah-ah-ah-ah
Ah-ah-ah-ah, ah-ah-ah-ah-ah, ah-ah-ah-ah-ah

It's gotta be this one,
You don't have to fake it
You know I can take it
What if I told you your tears haven't been ignored
And everything that was taken can be restored

Chorus:
Feel this
Can you feel this
My heart beating out of my chest
Feel this
Can you feel this
Salvation, under my breath

It's gotta be just right
Soul and spirt
Chord and lyrics
What if I told you that innocence is yours
And the beauty you have now is brighter than before
Before

Challenges

2009-10-29T00:40:00.002+08:00

Havent been working for the past two days. I feel so lazy.

Anyways.. I went down for a casting at swisshotel together with Rachel and saw many familiar faces. :) hope i did well during the casting!

After that went off to salsa at Union square .. which is located at Amara hotel.

Didnt dance much as i had a lil tummyache :(

was chatting with a few friends that i havent seen in ages.

Arvind and i were talking about life and it's just really good to see him cuz he is travelling every now and then.. I really respect him as a person, he is amazing and he believes in me. Which gives me hope.

See,sometimes in live you just need a shimmer of hope. It affects the way you think. And makes you a happier person. So thank you Arvind, for believing in me , and also, for that awesome job offer you recommended me to!

See you soon again.

Of course, danced with many other great dancers as well.. :) its always great dancing..

Hmmm.. this sunday will be my very first car show event job~! I'm so excited..! Thanks Leslie.. :)

Am also excited for Mick's casting that is gonna be held in singapore soooon. It is for a scene in a drama film titled "Victims of Circumstance" that will be shot at Bigfoot studios in Cebu.

Really cool huh..!:D Always doing outdoor fashion shoot on land. Time for a change i guess..Underwater fashion is totally an IN thing for me! Challenging and creative. Way too awesome. Gets me better in health as well as i have a history of asthma.. :(boo.

uh-oh getting kinda late now and im not sleeping yet and i have another shoot with patrick again tomorrow! it is gonna be FUN and tiring. haha.

Meeting baby at 10 am tomorrow so i better get to bed like NOW..!

tata.

i miss my family..

xoxo

Rashes!!!

2009-10-26T11:51:00.002+08:00

the painted mermaidOk great now i'm having an incredible bad rashes and i don't even know if i should go work cuz it looks really gross..!! i don't want anyone to freak out at all. :( sobs... this sucks.. i wanted to go to work.. GAHHHH!!!!

hope it gets better soon!

Underwater test shoot

2009-10-25T21:58:00.005+08:00

Pictures credited to Patrick Poh http://www.expressohphotography.com/

For more of my pictures visit my Portfolio : http://beckiish.blogspot.com/

Well, had an underwater shoot this afternoon at my baby's condo pool. :)

I swear it is NOT easy at all to open your eye nice and huge,look pretty and making sure your hair is nice, oh and not forgetting to hold your breath and make sure no bubble comes out of your nose or mouth! LOL.

not easy at all definitely . but FUN FUN FUN!

will be working with him again sometime again and also,with Mick as well..

This is his site http://www.mickgleissner.com

After the shoot, when down to meet baby at Vivo.. They were playing some nba game thing.

And guess who i saw ! Yee kit! the gorgeous model that does alot of events .. yes, she's my primary shool mate. :) How much have we changed since pri school times huh! lol.

Hmmmm..anyways for the past few days been staying over at baby's house cuz his dad is not in town!HAHA. so i managed to watch my one tree hill season 5 over at his place.. awesome.. I LOVE his mom's home cooked food.. guess i kinda miss that kinda feeling of eating in a house. that home-ly feel. :(

Anyways. that should be all my dears.

Signing out.

Takecare!

xoxo

i am who i am

2009-10-20T19:07:00.000+08:00

crazy people do crazy things.

2009-10-20T17:31:00.006+08:00

Went out with Charlotte and biatch. Checked out MDIS. HA,yes i finally decided to study again.

Taking up Mass Communication. Good for PR and events industry. So yep.

After which, went to chill and have dinner at Macs. :)

After our meals, headed to watch a movie. "Julie and Julia"

based on two true stories. Pretty interesting but not a "WOW,AWESOME SHIT!" kinda movie.

well, at least for me.

Called baby after movie , then i took a bus to his house. Apparently it was Troy's Birthday. Happy Birthday Troy, 20 now huh. Yea,i wasnt even aware of it till baby told me the very last minute,so naturally his plans are last minute as well. It wasn't a party. Just chit chatting..eating..playing finger guessing game, whoever loses will have to drink.

at around say 12 am Zhu en fetched all of us back home. and Troy just dropped by my house for a while..

crazy people do crazy things. :S

HAHA! this is my baby doing his MASK ! i bought it for him from face shop.

How cute, he looks like he is enjoying. :D

Muacks..I U .

xoxo

Take me home

2009-10-18T21:01:00.003+08:00

Great.

i thought after getting my One tree hill season 5, i can FINALLY watch it, but the laptop decided to pull a fast one on me. -.- fuck.

i practically wasted my SUNDAY.

and Windows live messenger decided to make me feel even worse by giving me problems signing in. now i have no choice but to use the old version windows messenger.

oh plus he is ignoring my messages. :) i feel so damn awesome.. !

ARGHHH!!

hmmmm.. whenever i'm in thoughts, i always wonder how i can be away from my family for almost close to a year.i was so attached to them.

they must be shocked how i can manage to live alone out there.

nevertheless,i do miss them alot. booo.. lalala.

Hung out with my close friend on friday.missed her so much!

went shopping.. :) haha, i simply LOVE shopping.

i bought a river island bag, paris hilton pouch and a dress from Valerie.

The sales girl from Valerie is hilarious . she even gave me her number! :) what a cutie pie.

after shopping , went to meet baby and his friends .

Went Dragonfly. there's a place to sing just above dragonfly,i forgot the name of it but i think it starts with an M. it was Davian's sis birthday, so we were there to chill.

headed to powerhouse to dance a couple of times and i happened to bump into Desmond Tan and Nicolette (no they're not an item :)) . It was such a coincidence from the fact that i havent seen them for literally ages. ha.

At around 4am, i felt kinda tired, no , like, seriously god-damn tired.. so baby and i headed home.

and that's my SAT for you guys! :D

back to work tomorrow. ugh, just plain gross x10.

guess i just gotta live with it. :S

till then bitches!

Shit always happens

2009-10-16T10:51:00.002+08:00

Stop fucking scolding me.

you know i'm trying my best.

Can you just stop scolding and try to fucking help me?in any way?

why am i doing all these?

i don't want all this shit to happen.

but things go off course once in a while. that's life.

And why can't you just let me try ONCE? for experience sake?

it sucks when someone you love so much chooses not to understand or help at all..

Taking chances

2009-10-16T03:24:00.004+08:00

Sigh..

i feel disappointed in myself.

i feel weird..

i feel sorry..

to my boss..

:(!

ARGHHH..

just went for an interview at club radchata.

yes i can't believe right, that i went to interview as dancer/promoter.

and get guys to buy me flowers. :S

And OMG. the managers there know my mom.well,cuz she's a regular.

and i thought i found one of them familiar cuz the last time my mom brought me to a club "67".. and she introduced me to him before. i just can't believe it. He was telling me my mom's hennessy bottle is just behind me. :S i seriously cannot imagine my parents reaction if they see me dancing to the pole or doing PR to customers..! HAHAHA! hilarious..But i think they will support me and buy me flowers,if i happen to work. HAh.

wellll the club is nice. it's kinda huge.

i think i can make pretty tidy sum working there.

but sigh. then again..

i should not even go for that interview.

what am i doing..

but i really do wanna try ONCE for experience sake.

hmm, though i can totally smell the aggression for sales.

Like selling shots and etc.

i think it is kinda challenging actually. Ha.

Anyways.. then again, why am i even there, when i know i won't be doing it anyways.

argh,fuck.

anyways,i hope to do events MORE. like ,i hope i can do events full time.

Spoke to my boss not long ago..like 1.30am plus.

i feel WEIRD..!

and i just can't sleep at all and i have a freaking shoot in the morning.

sometimes i seriously HATE my life. like, seriously.

it will get better

2009-10-12T23:52:00.003+08:00

Sigh..

what a bad day at work..

and im super bored. iHATEBOREDOM.

Can't wait to study again.

and then apply to be air stewardess in the near future.

For the exposure . Think that it will be pretty awesome.

Anyways, if anyone has any job recommendations please inform me yes??

And also, currently not so active in photoshoots or even events anymore.

Due to some personal reasons. Will be spending lesser time on that.

So yup!

oh gosh. how i wish i can turn back time and just let time stay there forever when baby and i were at phuket.

Nevermind, i look ahead. There are so many other awesome places to go!

I just love going on vacations with you darling. muacks!

MORE MORE MORE! gahh.

ANYWAYS!! LETS LIGHTEN THINS UP ABIT!

the first part when the vid turned to the other side is cuz bABY was videoing ! LOUSY! watch after 55 secs. HAHA. interesting trannies.. :) i just LOVE the nightlife in phuket.

the last pursue

2009-10-06T23:42:00.012+08:00

I will learn,even if it hurts me.

Will you be the one who will catch my tears?

and if i were to say you're reason..am i foolish..?

Love is foolish.

That is why we do stupid things.

Things that we never meant to do.

why do we cry over our loved ones?

Because we have feelings for them.

Be it family..boyfriend..best friend..

People have feelings.

I cry like a baby when i'm sad and hurt.

is that weird?

i was thinking..

there are more than 6 billion over people on earth..

And out of all, somewhere,somehow.. a couple shares one thing in common.Their hearts merge as one.

What are the chances of finding someone who loves you back with a population of 6 billion over people..?

I think it's incredible. And all the more we should cherish. And not take each others' love for granted.

Whats the point of hurting each other? Love is to make sure both party is happy.

Love is an emotion.

Love cannot be measured.

Love is not about possessing.

Love is about caring.

Love is about sacrifices.

Love is about giving.

Love is about patience.

Love is about mutual understanding.

Love takes effort.

yes of course,it is easier said than done.

who said it was easy anyway?

Sometimes, quarrelling makes us understand each other more.

However, too much of it is unhealthy.

And guess what?

the little imperfections are what brings us together.

and they are what makes us who we are,because no one is perfect in this world.

sometimes,no matter how hard it is,when you love someone,

you have to accept their imperfections . If..you want to last with him or her.

Of course, love cannot be one-sided.

Sometimes, love is your weakness.

But hey, you've got to be strong and have some back. (yes i'm learning, trust me,haha)

Thank you my dear babes Shiva and Riah,for being there for me when i'm down.

HA, you guys sure made me laugh.

love you guys to bits. XD

Sorry Siti.. things might have been better if ... yeah.

You're a good cook! :D

after this incident,

after the talk with my good friends,

i know i'm strong.

;)

kinda tired now.. gonna head the sack!

good night Earth.

Tomorrow will be a better day. xoxo

Our love

2009-10-05T22:44:00.001+08:00

Enjoy.. :) i love you.

the reason is you

2009-10-04T23:31:00.004+08:00

Sometimes,it is not about what you want or don't want.

it is about priorty.

I've learnt alot.

And things will be better ahead of us.

i have my goals to meet.And i must do it.

no matter what.

Bliss

2009-10-02T15:43:00.006+08:00

Cause i see happiness in us..

XOXO

Darkness

2009-10-02T10:27:00.004+08:00

Nothing in my life is great at all.

My family doesn't love me and not want me anymore.

My boyfriend couldnt care less about me.

I lead a pathetic life alone.

holding several jobs to feed myself.

Thinking of ways to keep myself living each day.

Some of my friends are envious of me. Which puzzles me alot.

Vaneza, are you sure i'm leading a fantastic and a glam life?

This is a life no one will ever want to go through.

i heart you

2009-10-02T10:14:00.003+08:00

what's the point being so in love with someone..?

the deeper i love him, the deeper i get hurt.

it's as if a million of daggers piercing through your heart.

I don't even know what to do.

I'm always at a lost of what to do when i'm hurt.

Especially when i love him so much.

Almost crazily.

i pray for God to heal my heart..

the last dance

2009-10-01T23:00:00.002+08:00

sometimes when your feeling so depressed.. all you want is maybe just abit of attention.

and not be busy reading random shit like one piece.

or saying other irrevelant things that will not do anything to help at all.

hmm, definitely not the best time to read anime when your girlfriend is kinda sick and is feeling depressed huh..?

then again, who am i?haha.

sigh..

i think it is not working out at all..

Such is my life

2009-10-01T21:57:00.005+08:00

WHERE IN THE FUCKING WORLD THE MOM WOULDNT WANT THE DAUGHTER TO GO HOME.

i took down my pride long ago, seeing she is my mother, and that i miss my family so much. She took me for granted.she don't care less at all. WHY! :'(

I asked her straight " Your daughter wants to come home now, do you want that to happen or not!"

The next minute she hung up one me. Yes i am crying as i am blogging.

Just for money. She loves money more than her daughter she raised for 18 years.

I will give her the fucking money, can't she just start thinking for me?

Does she even love me?

Do I still exist in her life?

Do i still exist in my family?

They are living so well without me.

I guess im not significant to them at all..

i just want to have a proper family.

i always hesitate to go home because i was telling my boyfriend that i am so used to living own my own already and that i'm so used to being together with him so close.

If i were to go home, there will be a drastic change.

BUT i still changed my mind and decided to go home.

Though i know if i go home, the same shit i will take again.. :'(

money money money.FUCK THE MONEY.

money is evil. It truly is.

what a bad day for me today.

i'm really ILL. having runny nose and headache and a sore throat.

And now a bunch of fucking horny bastards asking me for SICK weird requests.JUST FUCKING GET LOST.

OH and not forgetting , work today was bad too. With all the change of rules.

RULES RULES AND MORE RULES AND NEVERENDING RULES!!

FUCK IT!

i just wanna die.

:S

2009-09-30T11:04:00.001+08:00

because im different.

Anyway.. UGH.im feeling sickly .. i don't wanna go to work!!!! :C

Bored

2009-09-28T22:30:00.001+08:00

Feeling really bored.. :S Baby is sleeping already.. Ugh..

:D

2009-09-28T12:03:00.001+08:00

Hold me tight and Don't let go

2009-09-28T11:25:00.004+08:00

Had a bridal shoot with baby about 2 weeks or so ago..Well it was a good experience just that the huge ants and mosquitoes were killing me not forgetting about the weather as well..Apparently,i don't really fancy the makeup but yeah, it was what the make up artist suggested.

All and all, the photos come over pretty well, Thank you Samantha for the beautiful pictures, they were taken very well.

Photos credited to Samantha

Hmm.. I wonder when will be our next genuine Bridal shoot.

I love you.. !

xoxo

I dedicated this song to you babyboy!

大ｓ　没有起伏的情绪　
因为你出现后划破平静
　　　震撼我已经封闭的心　
冰山和雪　在溶解

仔仔　回到初次的相遇　
风在吹一个人独自美丽
　　　灰的天空为何没有表情　
你的心　下雨

大ｓ　就让我爱你　没有了自己
仔仔　残破的光影　黑暗中深深吸引
　绝对地　就算生命所剩无几
合唱　只要拥抱瞬间的默契

大ｓ　就让我爱你　证明有奇迹
仔仔　再狂野的心　灵魂的深处有妳　
我愿意　放弃世界微笑而去
合唱　幸福很远心却在一起

大ｓ　过去总是挥不去
仔仔　再坚强记忆仍像恶梦不醒
大ｓ　我的泪水淌过你的天空
仔仔　雨下不停心好痛

仔仔　风像画笔看着我　你的容颜竟在风的前头
大ｓ　我的心画出第一次的彩虹
合唱　因为你我相信

We belong together

2009-09-23T00:14:00.007+08:00

hey guys.. Just wanna share some pictures taken during the event.. :D

Enjoy!

Shooting with Ronny again tomorrow . Can't wait, he is such a great guy to work with!!:)

Some random pic with babyboy

HAHA!!Just a very short random vid. We were on the speed boat in phuket!

We kept luffing cuz the speedboat was very bumpy as the boat was going against the wave but it was kinda fun!

WOW.

2009-09-21T00:27:00.003+08:00

Oh my god. it has been a hectic day.

I still can't believe i got into the finals for Super Import Night bikini search.

I am soso happy and i wanan thank all the pretty babes that are supporting me muacks.

OF CUZ, thank you BABYBOY. love ya!

This has been an awesome experience.

i get to meet pretty babes, get in touch with gorgeous cars and all the fun is just insane!

Going for bridal shoot with baby in like 6 hours time!

Yes in the morning, and then after that will be going to Expo.

Arghhhh tired tired tired..

But all worth while. XD

Anticipation

2009-09-11T22:11:00.000+08:00

Hey guys!

PHUKET IN 8 HOURS TIME!

Time for me to leave everything behind,
just me and you..
much love..
always.. and forever baby.

till then,
miss me. :)

You exists

2009-09-10T01:56:00.000+08:00

Because it´s only when you´re tested that you truly discover who you are. And it´s only when you´re tested that you discover who you can be. The person that you want to be does exist, somewhere in the other side of hard work and faith, and belief and beyond the HEARTACHE and fear of what life has.

Its either you love or hate me.

Not happy? Too bad.

Love me? Welcome to the club.

;)

I'm sick of people assuming things they see and what they THINK they know.

Do not ever judge a book by its cover.

I am nice, all the time, just don't go beyong my limits.

i am ME. and will always be.

Yes people do change, But the character in me, :) its Rebecca Chen.

Seriously thinking of going back to study. And yes i mean for real.

Or infact as soon as i'm back home.

been having insomnia lately.Just cant get myself to sleep no matter how tired i am.

sigh.

!

2009-09-09T02:02:00.000+08:00

Models, Please take note, whoever were the victims of Jimmy.H,

please message me directly to my email.

thank you.

In that moment

2009-09-09T01:46:00.000+08:00

Will be workin with a female photographer in Phuket! HAHA! so excited, can't wait to work with her, her works are awesome.. :)

today i had a good day at work.. and watched "i love you Beth Cooper", Not fantastic, but good enough to laugh your heart out. Hehe.. :)

ITS LATE, GOTTA TURN IN NOW!Baby is waiting for me.. bye!

the trick is to keep breathing

2009-09-08T00:27:00.000+08:00

Feeling spaced out now..After 1 whole day of thoughts.. I guess i gotta be positive.For us.. For you i will. I do not want it to be a mistake.I hope this decision will do both of us good. :)

Sigh.. i am seriously tired of going to work. i need a long break. i really do.

the games that play us

2009-09-06T23:12:00.000+08:00

Down. Just really down.

i will go home. As you wish. I will do whatever you ask me to. Whatever my mom is going to ask me to. How she is going to command me and follow her rules so that she would not be angry.

I am prepared. Most to most , i just lose you. Its ok, i'll just have to get used to it.
I'm sick of this. Decisions that just cant be made. Being caught in the middle.

After running one round, i'm back to where i am. I can foresee that i will be running round and round for the rest of my life.

Why? Why does God have to put me in this stage whereby i do not even know what to do with my life

No one really understands me.
i guess this is my life.
my destiny.

i cant change it ,can i?
I love and dread going home.
Love , simply because i love my family.
Dread, haha, definitely more reasons than love.

Can someone give me your two cents worth of advice..?
i need some counselling.

i am depressed.

Sometimes,i think, we might as well be strangers. Wouldnt that make things easier?

No one should judge me.

SIN bikini search 2009

2009-09-05T19:12:00.000+08:00

Went for their casting just a few days ago. Not bad..

Interacted with other models and stuff. Had a photoshoot and we are going to the finals!

It will be from 18th sept to 21st sept. at Expo hall 4.

It will be a good experience. :)

Jimmy heng,Karma is awaiting you. :)

:)

2009-08-29T13:28:00.000+08:00

Oh my god.YESTERDAY'S shoot was pretty crazy. started at 11am ended at 1am!! So exhausted..

And my dear baby waited so long for me.. so sorry.. :(

anyway i JUST woke up,yeah i know i'm a pig. Baby hates waking me up. hehe..

Gonna be heading to east coast park!

No shoots today! Been shooting four days in a row and i need a break. HA. :D

A moment of Gladness

2009-08-27T10:23:00.001+08:00

Rushing to go for shoot now. I am LATE! and im still here.

argh,gotta RUSH to work right after shoot.

i HATE MY FULL-TIME JOB!!

anyone wants to feed me all life? HAHA.

i can't wait for final destination tomorrow midnight! :)

*thank you Christine,my godsister,i'm glad i have not lose you.But you are so FAR apart.. i miss you dearly and am touched by what you said.. Love you and is tryin to wait patiently for your visit to singapore..!I hope everything is fine over there at France.i know you will be reading this. ;)

Remember the days

2009-08-26T00:51:00.000+08:00

Tiring day today.

Went to work late, yet again..

i dread going to work. I was sooooo bored... Biatch (Shiva) took my ipod touch yesterday when we were having dinner at fisherman's wharf together with Keling. The fish and chips there is pretty awesome.Anyway, GIVE IT BACK TO ME!! i am seeing you tomorrow.

went off at 5 to meet up with Ronny at tanjong beach for a shoot by the beach.

He bought 5-6 bikinis and all of them looks awesome.. i am so gonna head to the shop where he went to choose.

Shoot went pretty well today just that it just had to rain later in the evening. Supposingly to shoot for 3 hours. But due to the rain, it lasted for about 2 hours. But of course im sure there should be a few great images already. i trust Ronny. :)

to cloudie* - thanks for the heartwarming words. I appreciate it sincerely! See ya soon perhaps on the dance floor at USQ! ;)

This week's shoots are kinda packed to the brim. But its good in a way, keeps me busy.

I am supposed to be sleeping now,but i am waiting for my baby to meet me after his work.Yes, afternoon shift. so yuppp. !!i cant wait for Phuket with my babyboy!! 2 more weeks to go!! and i can say TO HELL with my work. :):)

by the way, there is a"BODYSHOP SALE" going on at plaza singapura. All products 60% off. Seriously a good buy. Do check em out.

i don't understand.and i think i do not deserve losing all my beloved ones.

i've lost both my families

i've lost my 'brother'

i've lost both my godsisters

i've lost a real home.

and now

i'm going to lose a very special friend of mine.

a shopping kaki

a listening ear and etc......

i forgave her, but i suppose she gave up 5 years of our friendship to her boyfriend whom is a jerk. An ultimate loser.

I'm heartbroken, and i've extremely disappointed in you.

Not because you betrayed my trust, but because you gave us up just like that.

With no effort at all.

In any case, my dear friend, i do appreciate the stars you made for me.

And i hope that you gave your good friend up will be worth it.

Prove to me he is not fucked up. You know it best and just fucking stop lying to yourself for goodness sake.You taught me how to open my eyes when i was with ****.

he was right,your naive.Not for that reason.

Naive for falling in love with him.

Expectations

2009-08-22T16:53:00.001+08:00

and he said consideration is needed.

maybe i should start opening my eyes as well.
What's said is said, and it can't be taken back.

is there still good and bad?
right or wrong?
truth or lies?

sometimes we're forced to accept because some things are beyong our making.

The Comeback

2009-08-21T08:58:00.000+08:00

I am back.

wow. i have not been blogging for more than almost 6 months.

i don't even know where to start.

Its been a few months since i left home. Countless of things happened.Things that i've never come across in my life when i was back at home.Been through loads of ups and downs.. Definitely not easy at all.

Right now i am going to head to work,i promise i will start blogging soon.

Loves,

Becky

happy new year 2009

2009-01-01T02:19:00.000+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2009 !

Another year just pass by us in a blink of an eye.Seemed like everything happened so fast.The same saying a new year , new resolution.. For some reason, when the clock starts ticking and strikes 12am, i felt somehow over-whelmed.You start telling yourself its a new year..what are your targets?What are you gonna strive to get what you want?In every aspect like family,love,career and just finding ways to improve yourself and be determined to do so.Thoughts just rush into your brain.Well,look forward.whatever setbacks you had in the past or grudges that you held,put it behind you.Make every single day worth living for and live happier.

For my new year resolutions.
focusing on my work and learn as much as i can.
maintaining the love bond or even making the bond stronger with my boyfriend
strengthening my family bond
not be stubborn(hehe,yes i will change!:P)
dance

How did i spend my new year?
it was simple and fulfilling.With my boyfriend and sis flo.it was great.though there wasn't a teeny bit of alcohol,the time spent with them made my day so much.love them heaps.Sleeping soon cuz i gotta work in like 7 hours time..!So i'm not able to blog everything in detail now..

LET'S LOOK FORWARD TOGETHER AND LIVE YOUR LIFE TO THE FULLEST!
LIVE EACH DAY LIKE THERE IS NO TOMORROW.

goodnight.*hugs and kisses*

ps:thanks for everything dearest..it's been a wonderful journey with you from the past 6 months till current!and there will be a lot more to come..and you will be the one i want to walk the journey with.i love you.muacks~

Beginning of always

2008-12-30T03:04:00.001+08:00

Remember tonight, for it is the beginning of always. A promise, like a reward for persisting through life so long alone. A belief in each other and the possibility of love. A decision to ignore simply rise above the pain in the past. A covenant, which at once binds two souls and yet severs prior ties. The celebration of the chance taken and the challenge that lies ahead. For two will always be stronger than one. Like a team braced against the tempests of the world. And love will always be the guiding force in our lives. For tonight is mere formality. Only an announcement to the world of feelings long held, promises made long ago in the sacred space in our hearts.

the simple things

2008-12-29T22:55:00.000+08:00

money,popularity, fame.we ignore what truly matter.the simple things..like friendship, family, love--the things we probably already had.

Most of our lives are a series of images, they pass us by like towns on a highway. But sometimes a moment stuns us as it happens and we know that this instant is more than a fleeting image. We know that this moment, every part of it, will live on forever.

will you?

2008-12-29T17:31:00.001+08:00

There comes a time when every life goes off course. In this desperate moment you must choose your direction. Will you fight to stay on the path while others tell you who you are? Or will you label yourself? Will you be honored by your choice? Or will you embrace your new path? Each morning you choose to move forward or to simply give up.

Dance with me tonight

2008-12-29T03:57:00.000+08:00

Dance With Me Tonight

Author: Kristi Day

I want to dance with you for a life time
Hold you close to my heart,
Stop the hands of time
Make the world give us a little more time
To feel our bodies close swaying together
To music that only we can hear,
Letting it sweep us into Heaven

Come, dance with me there
We'll dance forever; never let go
Hearts in tune hand to hand,
Building love between us
That we barely can stand
Candles low no bright lights
Our love will light the way,
Come hold me close; dance with me
Til the night breaks to day

Feel our bodies pressed close
As close as skin to skin,
Open your heart to me baby
Come on, let me in
Fill my senses with your rush
Let me taste your deep kiss,
Hold me tightly to your heart
Never have I felt like this
Never will I feel it again

For within your arms I've died,
I've gone to heaven in your love
These are happy tears I've cried
Never have I been so loved
Or felt so much love for anyone,
Dance with me honey
Until the night is done

Dance with me until the world is done
I can't resist your charms,
Dance with me and hold me close
Let me die within your arms
Don't ever let me go
Dancing with you is so right,
I will never let you go
Come....dance with me tonight

Life lessons

2008-12-29T03:23:00.000+08:00

My oh my,i don't even know where to begin with,the happenings since my last blog entry till this current date.To sum it all up,i was definately growing through a life-changing experience.I won't say it's something good or bad,but it has definately taught me life lessons worth learning.Like living independently,having more courage,knowing what i want in life and being emotionally stronger.It was not easy at all,to walk out of your house and family just like that.It took me 10 over years to have that courage to do so.I asked myself,"Is this what i really want in the future?Problems going on and on..?" i made sure i'm sure of my decision.I stood by my stand held my breath and walked out.Obviously,i wouldnt not have done so if things were not so bad.I love them alot,but i figured i needed to do something for myself for once.

After i've done so,i had a taste of the real world.I wasn't the worst,and i'm not pleased at all.It was disheartening and painful to listen to their heartbreaking stories.What they have been through was so much worse than me.I felt the pain for them.In this world,there are so many other helpless people out there that need help but just don't get it.The world and society should be grateful to the kind people out there that helps such harmless women.I am thankful.

During that saddening and tough period of time,it has brought me to see who my real friends are.Besides my boyfriend that is.Talking about my boyfriend here,i can't stress how much i thank him for being so supportive of everything i do and being by my side through this tough phase.If not for him,i would probably still be in distress and living each day miserably.Thank you dear,for being there when i need you the most and i will never forget the time we spent at the hospital in the wee hours till the next morning.And running up and down with me to get my problem settled.And i also would like to thank all my other friends out there that did their best to help me.I appreciate every one of your help.

Whatever it is,at least i have done something for myself,and i believe that i have made her realise what i want.And that is the only thing that truly matters.Even if it's not going to go on smoothly now,i will make sure that things will be right one fine day.I don't know when,we can't predict the future,however,when there is a will,there will be a way out.

ILY

2008-12-10T03:56:00.000+08:00

i love you baby dearest.

i just wanna thank you again,for the unconditional love and the understanding..
i appreciate every single thing you do for me..
sometimes,it's the little things you do that matter the most..
sorry for the times i made mistakes and for being so stubborn..
it's a long road ahead of us if you are willing to go forward,regardless whether there are storms or obstacles that are going to happen..let's stay strong and cherish the present.

hugs!
ps,you matter alot to me. :)

Things changes in a blink of an eye

2008-12-06T02:40:00.000+08:00

I wonder how life can be so crappy.Sometimes you tell youself that you have to stay strong,you try so hard to be,and yet your heart just feels so frail.Especially when you are on the verge from falling off the cliff.And sometimes,you wish you just fall off.At least it beats the feeling of hanging there.I never knew that decisions can be so hard to make.When either way is just as bad..and you want things to be perfect but whatever that you do is not going to change.You hope,you pray,you wish,you cry..at the end of the day,you realise you are still in that shit.You want things to be perfect so badly that whatever you think is wrong you don't give a damn.You forget all the consequences.Being caught in a dilemma sucks..

your love gives me strength.and i think its called the power of love. :)

2008-08-07T19:28:00.000+08:00

We can never be satisfied in life.everytime we get what we want,we want more.that's what it is.

my emotion is taking me over.
sometimes.its better not to be hopeful in order to not be disappointed.
i'll lead my life one step at a time.i'll keep my fingers crossed,all the time..
i don't want to think about what is going to happen in future.anything.be it good or bad.i don't want to know.

truly madly deeply

2008-07-13T00:40:00.000+08:00

OMG.it's just one day after you left,and i'm like missing you so badly already.

i wanna be back in your arms.

thank you darling,for everything.
your understanding,
your trust,
your love,
your concern.

the fact that you are willing to go through thick and thin with me means alot to me and you make me stronger.i love you.you give me the courage to love again.you give me faith because you believe.

have fun there and i'll see you soooon again!muack

ily

2008-07-05T01:20:00.001+08:00

i finally found the love of my life.

i hope it gets better in time

2008-06-30T02:38:00.000+08:00

im beginning to seriously hate living in this house.no one will ever know or understand wad i'm going through,so you guys dont need to start going on with "they do it for your own good" or "all moms are like that".. cuz i know how and what my mom is like.sadly,my dad is somehow transforming to my mom..how fucked up can that be?i always thought that if my mom don't trust or understand me,i still have my dad..but no,now he made my life worse. :'( the worst thing that can ever happen is when you love your parents so much and yet they just dont seem to understand and spare a thought for you.it hurts so much..i hate the way my mom digs my past out and use them to hurt my feelings.esp with crude words.heavy words that really pierce through your heart.i don't want to think of the worst scenario.i don't want to leave home..but im hating almost every single sec spending my life in this "house".

aside from that,they are so overprotective over me that they control me so damn much.

seems like the older i get,the more they go against me.no words can actually describe how i'm feeling.1)the restrictions..dont even make me start on that,cuz its totally ridiculous and 100%fucked up.there are 101 rules in this house.2)the quarrellings..we quarrel every single day without fail.that's how we communicate.whenever i sit down and decide to talk with her peacefully,she'll heat up the conversation.

you know,all of us hope that our parents support us when we tell them about our boy/girlfriend,right?yeah me and my stupid mouth,i was telling my mom about my new r/s that very day.she seemed supportive and everything,and trust me,i was over the moon.but the next day everything changed because they said they thought it over.and then they became negative about it.like what the fuck?i love them,so i tell them about my boyfriend.i expect them to support me.but noooo..they don't trust me.there's no trust in this family.so now i learnt,i'll never confide in them anymore,as much as i want to,cause by doing so,i'll hurt myself in the end.so what's the point?i'd rather keep it to myself.

sigh,Dear God, please guide me through this.

and i lost my beloved chomel watch today. :( so sad,my poor watch,whoever that's gonna take it,lucky you. -.-

but it's okay,spending time with my darling tops it all.

thank you darling for everthing.you are the most understanding boyfriend ever..

i feel lucky to know and be with you..!

you're probably the only one too,that love me for who i am,and not change me.

you let me be who i am and i appreciate it. :D

muacks.

workkkk

2008-06-28T21:23:00.000+08:00

okay im way toooo lazy to blog about my bdae and genting trip.too much to blog about,and i've forgotten half the things i wanted to blog about it.so forget it.

shall just talk abit about my day today.
well,i woke up at 6.15AM please,and my god,i was soooooo tired.cuz i slept for say 3 hours or less?yeah then working hours for sat is 8am till 5pm.so its 9 hours.and usually the morning crowd is alot.so yeah...anyway my last day of training will be this monday.and after that ill be on my own..!faints.i hope i dont screw up or anything really..

hmm now that im working i don't feel LAZY anymore.hehehe.

:))

2008-06-25T02:05:00.000+08:00

HEY GUYS!been very busy lately..!will blog again bout my bdae and my genting trip alright?

kisses!

and thanks all who wished me happy bdae and those gifts from u guys.

i wanna thank my darling too.i love you!:)muack

lalalala.

2008-06-15T23:05:00.000+08:00

HAPPY FATHER'S DAY!

OMG.im soooo happy.cuz my dad finnaly managed to quit smoking!yay.hahaha..
cigarettes are exp and harmful to your body,worst of all,it doesnt get you high!so it's stupid. :D

just went to vivocity for dinner.kimgary restaurant.the food there is just superb.hehe.but the dish i ordered today wasnt that good.bleh.BUT the drink was on top of the world..yeah.MANGO MILKY LURE.with sago!hehehehe...i was so bloated i could hardly walk.

genting tomorrow.leaving in hmm,less than 6 hours.gonna miss someone!:D heeeeeeeeeeeeeee

will be back blogging with all my pics !takecare ppl.loves.

Through the rain

2008-06-14T18:58:00.000+08:00

When you get caught in the rain
With nowhere to run
When you’re distraught and in pain
Without anyone

We keep prayin’ to saved
But nobody comes
And you feel so far away
That you just can’t

Find your way home
You can get there alone
It’s okay
What you say

I can make it through the rain
I can stand up once again
On my own and I know
That I’m strong enough to mend
And every time I feel afraid
I hold tighter to my faith
And I live one more day
And I make it through the rain

Hoo...hoo...doo doo doo
Ooh...hoo...mmm...hmm...

And if you keep falling down
Don’t you dare give in
You will arise safe and sound
So keep pressing on

Step fastly
And you’ll find what you need
To prepare
What you say

I can make it through the rain
I can stand up once again
On my own and I know
That I’m strong enough to mend
And every time I feel afraid
I hold tighter to my faith
And I live one more day
And I make it through the rain

And when the wind moves
And shadows grow close
Don’t be afraid
There’s nothing you can’t face

And sure they tell you
You’ll never pull through
Don’t hesitate
Stay calm and sane

I can make it through the rain
I can stand up once again
On my own and I know
That I’m strong enough to mend
And every time I feel afraid
I hold tighter to my faith
And I live one more day
And I make it through the rain

I can make it through the rain
Can stand up once again
And I live one more day
And I’ll make it through the rain

Ooh, yes, you can
Mmm...hmm...
You can make it through the rain

i feel so lazy today.
no wait,i feel lazy everyday!ooooops.
i need to stop pigging..

bored

2008-06-14T01:35:00.000+08:00

armin van buuren-birth of an angel

best part starts from 4.00min!:)

ok this is what happens when I'M bored.hehee

exceptional

2008-06-13T02:28:00.000+08:00

"Exceptional"

Mmmm

You're beautiful but you don't know
Can't see what's there inside your soul
Always feelin like you're not good enough
You wish you could be someone else
Sometimes you just can't see yourself
But I can see just who you are, who you are

You're exceptional the way you are
Don't need to change for nobody
You're incredible, anyone can see that
When will you believe that?
You are nothing but exceptional
(Yeah)

You never you think you measure up
Never smart or cool, or pretty enough
Always feeling different from all the rest, oh
You feel so out of place, you think you don't fit in
I think you're perfect in the skin you're in
You're just perfect just how you are, just how you are, yeah

[chorus]
You're exceptional the way you are
Don't need to change for nobody
You're incredible, anyone can see that
When will you believe that?
You are nothing but exceptional

If you could see the one I see when I see you
You'd know how lucky you are to be you
I see through into you
And you are

You're exceptional the way you are
Don't need to change for nobody
You're incredible, anyone can see that
When will you believe that? (You are)
You're exceptional the way you are
Don't need to change for nobody
You're incredible, anyone can see that
When will you believe that?
You are nothing but exceptional

my lips don't lie

2008-06-13T01:55:00.000+08:00

nothing beats having a lychee martini by the beach at bikinibar chilling with a friend. :)
with that gentle breeze and music that's soothing to your ears.
btw i heard salsa music while walking to the monorail!made my legs so itchy.
if YOU are reading this,LEARN SALSA ASAP. haha!

anyway,went to watch movie with my family just now. "the happening"
stupid and senseless.yep.after movie went to shangri-la hotel for late dinner.
had tom yum and "ballerina".it's raspberry vodka.well, basically i asked the waiter to lesson the vodka,but somehow it was still pretty strong,i guess i'm not a good drinker.haha.

can't wait for genting..!
its been dino years!miss those rides and the shopping there.
hehe.

heard that there'll be a salsa party at xenbar..but yeah,i can't.:(
sobs.hope you guys have fun..!

hello

2008-06-12T04:43:00.000+08:00

omg,i'm back to blogger now!i was helping flora with her blog,so i was searching for blogskins for her and now i'm tempted to change..!i couldnt resist.hehe oh well.do re-link yes?sorry for the trouble people. :)

but fuck ,blogger doesnt allow me to upload videos from youtube.

gotta go sleep now,blog about my day later!:)loves.